tired

Now, i feel so tired, feeling is not young as i it used to be,
For all the dating i have skipped, sick of say no, even yes to
i know it will end soon, juz trying to state my feeling here... Drown by the river of
Job schedules.. No space to be in lurveeee... Feel lonely tho,... Ivana is at medan now, she will be at jakarta
tomorrow, with her seems everything is OK, but I'm afraid it won't last long... We're not dating
but she "completes" me, or i complete her :)...iv, if u read this, can you stop by
When you're free and spend a nite with me.. TALKING.. :)

compose 1_ raw

My one nite song... Shud write it down and record, before i forget...

I've been dying to forget
The taste, the smell, the all we had
They say that nothing lasts forever
But you're here means all the matter

Listening to the morning breeze
Which composed of thousand memories
And then the rhythm and the rhyme
Think to neglect but it's a crime

Reff :
i can't forget, really won't forget
This heart is just forever
This love just means together
i swear to stay, for all the breath to share
They say that nothing lasts forever
But you're here means all the matter

yth : dunia

Kepada dunia
Mendengar aku pada jeritan,
Jemari hati yang terluka, insan muda mencoba memanah rembulan, busurnya luka, hatinya sirna, mereka dihinakan, orang2 kecil, aku, orang2 yg dirampas haknya, aku, berapa banyak nyawa yang dikorbankan, aku, berapa banyak jiwa yang direndahkan, aku, hidupku.. Berapa banyak ibu tanpa keibuannya, berapa banyak ayah tanpa anaknya, landa iba hati orang tua tanpa daya untuk sekolah anaknya, mengamen hidup, nyanyikan lagu indah, aku, pura-pura.... Lemparkan tawa, bersihkan luka, kamu, bisa? Mudahkah? Atau hanya kau luka yang tersisa? Kamu aku bangunkan mereka! Menjadi saksi... Kepada dunia...

NOW!

I'm on my knees, saying my prayers.... many things to say while eyes are tired, telling my mind to force my body to bed.. NOW!.. I'm praying for April's Mom, Dad, and her sista, May God give the best for the surgery... Touch her Dad with His Holy Spirit, hold her sister's hand with His Glorious Touch... And for April, to be strong in the time, especially like this...NOW!.. i know she's capable of doing it, i know her well.. Like she knows me..So please God, give the best for April's family...
i also pray for my dear Aunt.. May God give her the better place than down here, whic is i believe He does...
it's hard to keep my eyes opened, i am typing with my eyes close, am wondering if i have prayed good enough to be heard.. i must keep going... Till i fall asleep.. NOW!

Today is one of a great day at work :), things r going well.. Some new
Concepts bout our new products were finally decided.. Well still running outt of time of
The world cup tee :).. But, we can make it.. i have a solid team.. Well. i'd rather say
I'm in a solid team..well the deadline is this May end, cos the world cup will start at June 11th...
Yay... i'm so excited..
Thanks hevi and widie.. U both rocks!
i've learnt many things bout new product development, how a concept was made, how it shud be treated,
When and how to manage the right things!
Well, make couple new friends at fb, err 1 of them is M's friend...
She said sumthing bout K name... Dat's how the buried memories filled my mind up, her voice,
The way she used to nag, smile, throw things, even fight.. and the new friend i told, sent me M pic at my fb inbox..
It felt like the wind whispering me her name... God, the sins i've made, sorry M, it's not because i din love u,
but u rejected me at the 1st place when i proposed u... Now, u'r gone, May God give u a better place there, than down here...
Where i know u'd been hurt so much, from ppl u love, friends u believe,
It's funny how i talk, chat and play with K, i din remember u at all, but after seeing ur pic..
I'm falling apart... Speechless!
i think i shud go and say my prayers... Will write soon...

sumthing juz too BIG!

Don know wat to write, thoughts fly freely...
i think I'm scared, afraid, i think life's too mean,
too complicated, too BIG for me to go through,
but at the same time i think I'm feeling the joy,
the glory of God, the kindness of universe in me,
to help me each time and telling me which way to go....
Ya, i need to live my life like everyday's the last...
*sigh.. I'm thinking too much...
Goshhhhh.. i don know how to put it,
I'm feeling BIG TIMES i can do it,
But some hesitation telling me it's just too BIG!
God, truly.. Don wan to disappoint U, Mommy Mary,
Jesus Your Holy Son,...i don't ask for the strength,
I'm too ashamed for it...
It's like I'm complaining too much in my life...
Juz wan You to stay with me always...
Slap me when i get too proud,
in my trial times- whisper me Your words,
so i can move on even the road is rocky,
or when it is the windy-dusty-breaking soul-torn-hearted path
i shall go, i'll do it...juz Bless me and family in our lives,... Gtg.. Talk to You soon, God...

homesick

Another day, another saturday nite has passed by, i juz stayed at home,
Some friends asked to the club, some to karaoke, well sorry guys, juz din feel like going elsewhere but home..
My eyes are tired even till now, but it's better now,... Need to keep away from the computer,
doctor said yesterday to rest my eyes for about 2-3 days, sumthing bout RADIATION...
Hmmm.. Wokey.. 2 days it is! .
Feeling homesick, miss my hometown,... Think i will go back this may, *checking the date first*...
Hmmm, May 12 is a good pick, go to work for a half day and to the airport,
And take the sixteen hundred flight.. And go back at May 16...
Gtg, mom's done cooking... Write soon

:)

Think i found myself a new job, hahaahahahhaha... When i started suggesting
some of my friends about wat they shud wear in order to looked casual..
Well, i believe the most important rule is ( it's like i say this over and over again ) " feel comfortable and relax "...
Oh shud go, write soon.. Need to pick some tee/shirt for my friend...